Everything is all worked out with Ed. Even when I'm confused and frustrated with him, I'm hopeful. That's gotta be a good sign. I'm concerned, though, about meeting his parents. They will probably not take to me well because of my age. Tomorrow is the last day of regular classes, and I'm looking forward to being able to sleep in a bit more and to having more time to myself. I've struggled for the past week in trying to motivate myself to get back on my health kick. I started back on my record Tuesday, and went back to yoga-ing tonight. It feels so good... I can't understand why I thought stopping was a good idea. In just a week, though, I tensed up a lot, which is something I need to work on. Hopefully I can hit the exercise center tomorrow. I have class, lunch and then a meeting for the door decorating contest (I hope we win! Our door looks really good, considering I dressed it up like a big present/tree gone horribly wrong) I forgot to take my pills (2 green tea capsules, 3 magnesium tablets & 1 Vitamin B complex) today, so I've had a hard time staying awake, and had an even harder time convincing myself to get out of bed after my nap. I skipped dinner since my appetite doubled due to my failure to take the f*$@#!& pills. I didn't know how much they really changed me, but I'm definitely not skipping them again. Usually if I don't eat directly after taking them, I get nauseous, but not taking them is way worse... so bad I almost binged today, and would have if I'd been able to. Oy. I cannot wait to see myself 30 lbs lighter... it's going to be so awesome! Oh to be a size 12 again... To get rid of my pre-hypertensive and pre-diabetic state... To look in the mirror and be as satisfied with my body as I am with my soul. To be in a better condition, period. I strive not for perfection, but for self-betterment. Anyone else interested in self-betterment? | 
